Like Bridget said it is a step by step process that you will go through and some days you really have to give yourself that push to move on and let go of some of the hurt and pain that comes with splitting our children away from us. At first it broke my heart to not have my children with me all the time, I always gave my time and attention to them and now I had to share them with my ex and his girlfriend.
Funny how my ex never wanted to be around the kids much unless it was something he wanted to do. At the start of the divorce he became Super Dad and his young girlfriend played the role of Wonder Mom. The two just broke a family apart and snatched the boys away as soon as they could. Selfish souls to the core. So I know how you ache for your children, but you will come to learn to live with what must be because you will have to and these selfish men know that. Their day of judgment will come, but as for you, you will make it as Bridget has stated...step by step by step by step.......
You are in my prayers. I have been where you are and now I am adjusted and have learned to use and enjoy my free time and I never thought I could do it ...just as you think you can't...but you will because you must and you will because you love your children and you will because you have strength in you that you are just beginning to pull out of your heart.