I know my ex still has feelings for me, why else would he have been crying. I asked him if he missed me at all and he said of course he did, every day but was hesitant to call me because he didn't want to cause me any more pain.
Like you, when he was here we got along very well and we talked about everythying. I told him that proved that we could fix things but he said now that he had cheated it was broken and could not be fixed. I was not able to forgive him at the time because I was so hurt that he had cheated and lied but I really have forgiven him now. I still have days where I get angry at him and I have days where I am still so hurt but every day I still love him. And every day I want US back. We were always good friends but over the years we just didn't pay enough attention to the marriage. After 34 years we had just started taking each other for granted and he was never very good about talking about things that bothered him. He told me a little while ago that he thought I would not have believed him if he had told me there was something wrong. I don't understand why he said that because the few times we did talk about problems we always did something about them.
I don't know how this will all turn out but for now all I know is I love and miss him every day. I know you are feeling the same exact thing and I hope you have things turn out the way you want. I just don't know why they make this so hard!!! Just stay with us and everyone will be fine! I know that and you know that so now all we have to do is wait until they figure that out. Take care and stay strong.
Well I knew it would come back to slap me in the face again. I let myself get my hopes up but once again he let me know that talking to me was not that important. He always talked to her around 9:30 so at 10"30 he sent me an email saying it was too late so sorry I am not calling.
Isent him an email telling him once again that I would try my bet not to ever call him again. I said that he had the life he chose and I am not in it so will try and keep it that way.
Naturally I am not handling this well. So I took an anti anxioty pill and am going to bed to feel sorry for myself yet again. i just need to get it through my think head that he does not want me anymore.
I hope you have better luck.