For me crying once in awhile will probably go on for the rest of my life. If onlyfor my children and grandchildren I will mourn the family we should have had. HOnestly, I think I will cry for me to. I cannot imagine not loving him and wondering what might have been. He is part of my past, a very important part, and anyone I end up with, if there is someone else which at 53 I am not at all sure of, will just have to understand.