Dear Diane,
thank you for responding to my post.
Well this is not an easy place to be in...., that is for sure.
I feel the worst is the lying..., right in your face...., even when the facts are undisputable. One one hand you want to believe on the other you know he is lying...again. And has been for decades. You feel like you are going crazy, your emotions are all over the place, from depressed to hopefull to anger all happening during the same day. Now my husband is working 7 days a week, not time to do anything together that takes longer than 2 hours. I was begging him to make time so we can repair this somehow, no response on his side. And why should he..., clothes are washed, dinner is on the table, house is clean. So frustrating.
I went through his phone and found telefon numbers about takeout food for Thai and Chinese..., funny he never eats oriental food with me...? Wonder where he takes the takeout food to? If you manage to get through the denial you know where to.
Anyway, yes it is my retirement that is coming up. Now down to 8 month. Some light at the end of the tunnel.
How are you doing? It would be nice to stay in touch.
Hugs, Kerstin