I am sorry that life dealt you a ****ty hand. ****tier then most. This guy is a horrible scum bag, I truly hope that someday karma comes for him.
For some dumb reason we all grow up thinking that "love is all you need" when in fact it all seems like a big unattainable lie. We sacrifice so much of ourself in hopes of finding love just when it punches you in the face.
Just know that it's not you, it never was. You did everything right and I wish he was the person that you thought he was. I hope you have some friends to rely on for support and if not, know/ feel that deep down it was never your fault. You gave purely, honestly and openly, you loved. It wasn't recriporicated, but that's on him it's not a reflection of you ever. He sucks, he is horrible and I hate him.
Most days I just want someone to say those things about my ex who is mentally torturing me and the kids, but it never comes....
But today I want you to know that we see him for the **** bag that he is and the queen that you are. Don't let some looser ******* take you down. Take some a teeny bit of joy in any little thing that you can today and know there is another woman out there that wants you to know that she cares and supports you. XO stay strong. DOn't let the *******s get you down.