I think it is normal. Plus 33 years is a long time to be with someone. Maybe you miss how it could’ve been if he’d been different. It’s okay. Feelings aren’t right or wrong - they just are.
Hi Toni
Thank you for replying
And I also did not see, talked to him for the last 2 years even though at times he was texting me telling that he was very sick and I did not believed him or respond to it.
I was there at the hospital till the end of his life when he got admitted in the hospital :((
It is understandable why you did not believe him. Because he had been so hard to live with and controlling, it probably seemed like he was using that as an excuse. I think it was kind that you even went to the hospital. You are a strong woman. Happy New Year to you also!