I'm sorry you're going through that. Everything I read says that things will get better eventually. I'm separated from my husband, I moved out about 2 months ago. Somehow he's perfectly fine. We have a daughter together that's 19 months old, and when we lived together he could not be bothered to take care of her or spend any time with her. Now that we're separated and divorcing, he is demanding to keep her 50% of the time. It breaks my heart every time I have to hand her over. Meanwhile work is overwhelming and there are days where I literally feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I wish there was a manual on how to do this...