I am praying for you sister! Many of your statements resemble my own life at certain points. This is truly hard and very much unfair to women who are as nice and caring and humble as we are. I have been sad for the last several years and need to make changes in my own life; maybe soon! But during your calm and level-headed times, please take the advice that has been given; make copies of your most important papers; slowly purge your house of extra items; save money in a place where it cannot be found by him; talk with a lawyer (many give you one free session); allow yourself to grieve....its ok; think logistically....and pray for God's guidance, he does not want to see you unhappy.