You know I sometimes feel the same way. I hate the fact that I helped The Flea become the man that he and another woman is taking all that away from me. I helped him climb the latter to his job now, and as soon as he got the position he wanted he dumped for a "better woman" or so he says. A woman he himself talked so bad about. He criticized her to the point of being a "Whor*" who slept around on her husband and look where he is now. p I see my life so different than when he was here. Don't get me wrong I sometimes do wish I had my life back, but what kind of life did I have, I played the good wife, while he basically played the playboy life. When he need a family, he was a family man, when he didn't he wouldn't even look at us. Now it is the same way with my son. When he wants to be a father, he wants more time, when he doesn't, he doesn't even call. Keep your chin and think you are better off. Try to get your kids with you and soon you will see life is much better. Take care.